In all Seriousness
My life has been a tad bit complicated…nothing that I can ever seem to eloquently express.
I, as many people, paint a smile in my face to deal with the day to day. The more I do this I trick myself into thinking…hoping…praying all will be ok.
There are days when anguish covers me and im internally fighting. I OFTEN Laugh to keep from crying.
BOTTOM LINE is that I used to feel bad about feeling my feelings…and very much ashamed to express them. People who don’t know me know me think I have it all together…people whom I allow myself voluranabilty…know that I’m constantly… trying to mend myself.
They think they know all that is there to know, but I find it hard to express my full self. To know what to disclose and what is not worth it…because they wouldn’t understand anyway…right?
These things make you feel crazy!
How dare I struggle with anxiety and stress and OCD AND procrastination/Laziness? And Stephanie…if you know these things are your “issues” …why don’t you just fix them?
Girl..you have a job…your own home…a car…food to eat (sometimes…too much!)
I dont write these words for sympathy…I write these words AS THERAPY…and so my sisters out here know you are not alone!
This is my answer to all the “if you ever need to talk girl!!” End of fluffy conversations that a lot of us clichely add when we depart.
So If you you want to talk…comment below. I’m here with you sis…..NOW!
Stay Luxe…while plus.. and Live Life!